What a mess

This week seems to be a total mess for me....
I never felt so bad in my life before... Not even before SPM or anything....
But this week...... Everything seems to went out so wrong..... So so wrong...... Maybe, the 'bad luck' has already come to cover and overcome my 'good luck'.

After I came back from my holiday, I started my 2nd week mid semester.
And that's when my life started to change...

First, I'm now sitting at the edge of my class.... On the very left on the very front row....And I can't see a thing.....The lecturer keep blocking my view and when I can actually see what they wrote on the board. When they start to unblock my view, that means they already start teaching other questions or topic..This make me only can listen and imagine what they are doing... Especially for Chemistry, Mathematics and Physics... There are so many equations... And if I can't see while you are explaining then how am I going to understand...?

Second, I'm now sitting beside a person which is so irreponsible and useless.... I'm not being rude or sacarstic... But he really is that kind of people.. When the lecturers are teaching, he don't even wanna pay attension... But after that come and ask me.. And during our test, he expect me to give him answers... Some more when lecturer ask him questions, he'll look at me for answers... Gosh.... Can you pay more attention in class please??? Don't always play with your phone and wonder your mind around kay?? And don't be so sambalewa and proud kay? Please train the marching team properly la! We wanna win kay?! Don't ask people to come and 8pm then you come and start at 9pm... Same like today.. I woke up at 8am for this.... And reached there at 9am.. But you?? 11.30am Only reached?? Isn't this too over and unfair for us? And if you don't know how to give command, don't act as if you know everything kay!?

Third, Now the lecturers wanna rush and complete our syllabus in time...This week is really so hectic for me..
Some more all the lecturers expect us to do a lot of home work and research ourself... And if we don't do, she'll hand our name to the head of our programme...That's sad....

Fourth, We have our IMPRO closing ceremony this week (today) and we have to plan and prepare a performance... So each and every night for this whole week, we have practices and dances and marching.. It's ok if they are punctual.. If you say start at 8pm, the we start at 8pm sharp, then maybe we can go back at 10pm and still have time to study for next day's test.. But you announced 8pm, instead of starting it at 8pm, you started and appeared at 9pm... Is this what a leader should do to show example for all the members? You'll just influence every member to be like you--come late... And everyone will not respect to you anymore... Even me...

Fifth, Now the Brilliant Hito already sit far away from me.. And I can't ask him anything instantly if I don't understand anything.. This makes me have to make an appoinment with him at the library almost everyday after lectures end at 4pm.. I'm quite tired actually.. I know he is too.. It's quite awkward to ask him everytime and everyday actually... But what to do? If not him then who else?? Sorry and thank you kay? (now you appear in my blog already.. happy la???=P)

Sixth, I was being saman AGAIN.... Twice for this week...
One is coming back late to hostel cause went out to have supper with friends at the shop just right infront of our hostel...
The other one is I was wearing shirt with sleeve until my elbow instead of full length until my wrist.. I had wore the shirt with the sleeve till elbow length for so many times already but why until now only you fined me? Why?? And yesterday my malay friends came back late from supper too... Bout 11.40pm something.. I asked them were they being fined? And you know what's the answer? ya.. you are right.. The answer is 'No'.
They are so racist... I can't belive that this is still happening in here... In this multi ethnics country...
Really disappointed...

I hope I can perform well for tonight's dance.. Hope that everything goes right.. Hope that I'll have a nice experience.. And hope that next week will be a better week..